I'm gonna blog

Okay I think I'm back.  I am not gonna promise everyday blogging but I will as much as I can.  Things have been super busy and I have let my life get in the way of my weight loss.  I have been back in fourth in court with my ex-husband over the custody of our kids.  We have a final court date on March 15th.  I have temporary full custody of them until then.  He still sees them every other weekend, but he don't do a damn thing for them, my kids have been sick with a virus, my husband got the virus..blah blah blah excuses and rambling.  Anyway  I was down 44 pounds now I am only down 34.  So yea I gained 10 pounds back since December.  That sucks! But I have no one to blame but myself.  So I am picking my self back up. Monday I started something new.  I feel like I am always hungry.  I only allow myself to take portioned food to work, and I make sure I don't have change so I don't get in the vending machine.  But by the afternoon I am starving so when I get home I snack the entire time I cook dinner, and I know all those little bites add up big time.  So I got a appetite suppressant and fat burner medication.  I only got a two week supply because I didn't know how it was going to effect my body or my mind. :) And I wanted to see if it worked. 
With the pill I got a meal plan based on my weight, activity level and gender.  So I have been following that.  Sunday I took the time to prep my food.  I measured all of my chicken and steak into 6 oz and froze them in separate freezer bags, I cut up 1 cup baggies of strawberries and stuck them in the freezer as well.  I cooked a huge pot of green beans and put them in one container in my fridge for me to eat out of every day.  I cooked a meat loaf for my family and made a lasagna because I know they will get tired of eating what I am eating.  Everything is in order to make sure that I don't fail.  Monday I started with out the pills I wanted to see if I how I felt eating on the meal plan.  Yesterday I started the pills.  They seem to be working really well.  I don't feel jittery or like my heart is racing, nothing bad.  I definably feel them giving me energy, and they are for sure suppressing my appetite.  Last night at dinner I wasn't even that hungry and I didn't snack one bit while cooking dinner for my family.  I drank 80 oz of water yesterday, which is really good for me.  I exercised both days this week so far and I feel good about this.
I don't plan on taking these pills forever but for a few months.  I felt like I needed something to jump start my weight loss and help me with appetite suppression and energy.  Hopefully Monday when I weigh again I will have lost a good amount. Now some pictures:

Here is what I had for breakfast this morning minus my banana. Its six egg whites..yes I said SIX and a piece of whole grain toast with spray butter. 

This is my mid morning snack yesterday.  Greek yogurt with flax seeds.  This brand is the only Greek yogurt I like.

I got my hair cut, colored and highlighted.  You can't really see the color of it but I looks so good, if I don't say so myself.  Here is a before and after.  I'm going for the sexy teacher look in the second one...haha!! 

My hubby and I on our 1 year anniversary.  Yep we made it! He is the best man I have ever known.

 My family.  I keep reminding myself I need to do this not only for myself but for them too.  To be around for them!  Hope everyone is doing great.  I have been reading and commenting  a little but I promise to be a better blogger!

Stay with me..

I have had a lot of personal stuff to get in order and until I do this blog will have to take the back burner.  I just don't have the time.  Thanks everyone for sticking around I will be back very soon.  I have been reading when I can.  I will do a total catch up in a few weeks.  Hope all is well!

Scale is broken!

I changed the batteries in my scale and now it doesn't weigh correctly.  Every time I step on it, it says something different. Soooo I don't know what I weigh, what I lost.  I am going to just weigh in Saturday after I buy my new scale.  I feel like I have lost weight, even though I have been dealing with these last 5 pounds since the first of December.  Does everyone else just get stuck sometimes?  Slack off?  The last two weeks have been awesome. I have been following my menu I have been making for the past two week and I have exercised every night.  Yesterday I rode my stationary bike in the morning for 20 minutes before work and 30 minutes last night.  I can feel it in my legs today.  I give myself spirts ( is that a word) of when I stand up and ride.  I definably adds something.  I took a picture today.  I wanted to compare it from when I first started. 

That's a least 45 pounds!  Today I am wearing my Kentucky Blue cause our #1 team in the nation is playing yucky ol' Tennessee tonight.  GOOOOo Cats!! 

Lots going on this week

First off I did not weigh in this week.  TOM was in town and I was really bloated.  So I skipped.  Hoping next week I see a good loss.  I made out a weekly menu and I have to say that works well for me I am going to push myself to continue to do that.  Last night my son snapped a picture of me and the husband playing UNO.  Oh no! I ended that game real quick and jumped on my exercise bike.  That picture depressed me the rest of the night, I guess it motivated me too.  My daughter gets to start pre school tomorrow.  I had to go through this whole big process to get her approved.  She has a speech problem, like a lot of kids she does not enunciate a lot of words correctly.  For example she will say "poon" instead of spoon or she will say "mell" instead of smell.  I have been going through the process since August and she finally gets to start tomorrow.  She will be so excited when I tell her she gets to ride the big bus with her brother.  I of course will take her the first day. :)  The early start program is at my son's school which is really cool and convenient.

Also I know this stuff is not weight loss related but I really need some prayers.  I have a final court hearing on Thursday for my custody with my children.  Now I am not trying to not let my ex husband not be able to see the kids I just want to make sure I have full legal custody.  Which means I have all say in schooling, doctors, ect.  Last February I got re-married.  My ex-husband kept the kids while we were on our honeymoon.  While I was gone he un-enrolled Tyler (son) out of his school he had went to all year round and en-rolled him in another school closer to where he lived.  When I found this out I was livid! I quickly enrolled him back in his school.   He is bi-polar (not medicated), he has had TWO dvo's on him,  one of them was on me, he hasn't kept a job in years, he went to jail for 90 days for stealing credit cards, he has given my 40.00 since we have been divorced.  He is supposed to pay half of daycare, he don't.  I pay 740.00 a month people! He is supposed to keep them on insurance, my current husband has them on his.  I could go on and on but I won't.  I just need prayers that everything goes my way.

Weigh In

Last week I ate crappy.  The first part of the week started off good but by Wednesday it seemed like I was a hungry hungry hippo!  I couldn't seem to stop eating..Grrrr.  I was expecting a gain not a 1 pound loss! I will take that.  I am still 1 pound away from losing the 7 I gained over the holidays but I'm thinking this week will be a good one.  Fingers Crossed. 

Im not super woman

A couple of weeks I fixed something my son had broken.  He asked me how I did it.  I responded to him with the answer "I am super woman" My son was like no your not where is your cape? He insisted I wasn't super woman for the rest of evening.  Well last night my family was sitting around the living room watching some TV and my son was doing his homework.  He asked me for help, I helped him figure out the answer and he said to me "Mommy your smart but your still not super woman" I said "why not" he says "cause your not skinny"  :(  

Weigh In

Happy Monday!  Well as I said before I really messed up over the holidays.  I am ashamed to admit it but when I weighed in on January 2nd. I had gained back 7 pounds! Wow seven pounds in about two weeks? I was really disappointed in myself.  Well I am happy to say last week I followed my eating schedule and when I weighed in on Saturday I lost 5 of the 7 pounds I packed back on my rear.  If I could manage to do a repeat this week I would be on cloud nine. Isn't crazy how long it takes to lose the weight but you can gain it back in an instant. It happens, but I will not give up.