I'm gonna blog

Okay I think I'm back.  I am not gonna promise everyday blogging but I will as much as I can.  Things have been super busy and I have let my life get in the way of my weight loss.  I have been back in fourth in court with my ex-husband over the custody of our kids.  We have a final court date on March 15th.  I have temporary full custody of them until then.  He still sees them every other weekend, but he don't do a damn thing for them, my kids have been sick with a virus, my husband got the virus..blah blah blah excuses and rambling.  Anyway  I was down 44 pounds now I am only down 34.  So yea I gained 10 pounds back since December.  That sucks! But I have no one to blame but myself.  So I am picking my self back up. Monday I started something new.  I feel like I am always hungry.  I only allow myself to take portioned food to work, and I make sure I don't have change so I don't get in the vending machine.  But by the afternoon I am starving so when I get home I snack the entire time I cook dinner, and I know all those little bites add up big time.  So I got a appetite suppressant and fat burner medication.  I only got a two week supply because I didn't know how it was going to effect my body or my mind. :) And I wanted to see if it worked. 
With the pill I got a meal plan based on my weight, activity level and gender.  So I have been following that.  Sunday I took the time to prep my food.  I measured all of my chicken and steak into 6 oz and froze them in separate freezer bags, I cut up 1 cup baggies of strawberries and stuck them in the freezer as well.  I cooked a huge pot of green beans and put them in one container in my fridge for me to eat out of every day.  I cooked a meat loaf for my family and made a lasagna because I know they will get tired of eating what I am eating.  Everything is in order to make sure that I don't fail.  Monday I started with out the pills I wanted to see if I how I felt eating on the meal plan.  Yesterday I started the pills.  They seem to be working really well.  I don't feel jittery or like my heart is racing, nothing bad.  I definably feel them giving me energy, and they are for sure suppressing my appetite.  Last night at dinner I wasn't even that hungry and I didn't snack one bit while cooking dinner for my family.  I drank 80 oz of water yesterday, which is really good for me.  I exercised both days this week so far and I feel good about this.
I don't plan on taking these pills forever but for a few months.  I felt like I needed something to jump start my weight loss and help me with appetite suppression and energy.  Hopefully Monday when I weigh again I will have lost a good amount. Now some pictures:

Here is what I had for breakfast this morning minus my banana. Its six egg whites..yes I said SIX and a piece of whole grain toast with spray butter. 

This is my mid morning snack yesterday.  Greek yogurt with flax seeds.  This brand is the only Greek yogurt I like.

I got my hair cut, colored and highlighted.  You can't really see the color of it but I looks so good, if I don't say so myself.  Here is a before and after.  I'm going for the sexy teacher look in the second one...haha!! 

My hubby and I on our 1 year anniversary.  Yep we made it! He is the best man I have ever known.

 My family.  I keep reminding myself I need to do this not only for myself but for them too.  To be around for them!  Hope everyone is doing great.  I have been reading and commenting  a little but I promise to be a better blogger!