Long time..no post...rambles

It is so hard to find the time to post these days.  Between work, kids and everything else this blog gets put on the back burner. 
I have been doing good.  I have lost a total of 25 pounds since February.  I try to exercise at least 5 days a week.  Eating has been good for the most part, I still struggle with weekends.

Yesterday I had Orange Leaf,  yogurt place with the toppings type of joint.  I had peanut butter yogurt with some chocolate chips sprinkled on top.  I don't see anything wrong with treating yourself as long as it's not all the time.  I wanted some ice cream and I feel like I choose the best option, rather than going to dairy queen and getting a blizzard.  But I still have feelings of guilt even when I make the right choice.  It's like I have it in my head if it tastes good it must be bad for me.  And it isn't just yogurt that does this to me.  Lets take sweet potatoes for instance.  I have swapped out russet potatoes for sweet potatoes, the obviously healthier option but I can't get through my head it's better because they are so good.  I feel guilty for eating them because I thoroughly enjoy them.  I guess I am just cray cray!

Another thing I would like to weigh in on...counting calories. I hate the thought of counting calories.  Hate it!  Sure I look at the calories in something or I measure something out based on the calories but I never keep a running total on the calories I take in but I think this is something I truly need to do...So today I have embarked on the journey of counting calories.  Lets see if I can keep it up. 

I have made so many changes but feel like I need to make so many more..but one at a time is working so far.  I read something today "go about your lifestyle changes like you go about remodeling a house, one room at a time."

Until next time..Hopfully I will be back sooner with an update!

Progressing quite well

It's been a few weeks since I posted.  I have been busy at work, busy at home, busy on the weekends, I find it hard to blog.  I'm not even sure if I still have anyone who actually still reads this, but I still find it therapeutic to journal this weight loss journey so I will still blog.   Maybe one day I will find the courage to post my blog on Facebook for all my friends to see. That will be the day I want everyone to see how far I have come.  Right now I am still hush hush. 

I am pleased to announce since last posting I have lost 9 more pounds making my weightloss "reset" 16 pounds lost.  My goal for February was 10 pounds, I got eleven.   My goal for March is 10 pounds.  I have lost 5. So half way there! I have a "super" goal in my head of 15 but won't be bummed if I don't make that. 

I have been exercising about 6 days a week.  Usually on my treadmill, sometimes a workout video or a combo of both.  I took off Sunday and Yesterday because I have been working on some things for my daughter's birthday on Saturday but I plan to get good workouts in for the rest of the week. 

There is a good chance I won't be weighing in this coming weekend because I am due my monthly visit and I don't want to step on the scale and get discouraged if I see a gain or no movement.  So I think I will avoid Mr. Scale until the following weekend. 

Hope everyone is doing good!  Until next time!

Just a little rambling..

I skipped my weigh in last week for two reasons...monthly visitor..enough said and my husband and I had our second year wedding anniversary needless to say we ate well at a nice steakhouse.  I tried to do well and don't think I did to bad.  I had the 7 oz sirloin, baked potato butter on the side, and house salad with ranch on the side. We stayed in the same hotel we stayed at on our wedding night and the front desk sent us up a special treat.  Chocolate covered strawberries. 

  I had some of course and definably don't feel bad about eating them. I am deciding what changes I need to make one day at a time.  One of my decisions is not to cut out everything I love.  I know if I do then I will fail.  I have read so many  weight loss blogs and they all have something in common.  They didn't deprive themselves from what they wanted.  If I want to eat at a steakhouse and enjoy good food. I will. But only for occasions like my wedding anniversary.  If I am craving something sweet I will have it, just in a smaller portion. 

This week I started the 30 day shred again.  Fun fun.  I spent 20 minutes with Jillian then spent 30 minutes on the treadmill.

The photo doesn't do justice to the sweat and redness of my face!

 After that since it was nice out I went out and played a game of HORSE with my son and attempted to teach my daughter how to ride her bike without training wheels.

Tuesday was 30 day shred again and treadmill afterwards.  Wednesday I was super sick with a virus my children passed onto me. I went home from work yesterday still feeling a little under the weather but I still pushed through a 20 minute treadmill walk.  Enough to work up a nice sweat.  Tonight I am looking forward to another round with Jillian and the treadmill. 

Little at a time

I am happy to report I have lost another 2 pounds this past week. Since "resetting" I have lost a total of seven pounds.  Slow but steady.  I have been measuring out portions, eating more veggies, trading out regular pasta for wheat pasta and switching regular potatoes to sweet potatoes.  Small steps can really add up.  I have been walking on my treadmill every night.  I'm feeling good. 

I have decided not to tell anyone about my weight loss this time around.  Hopefully I will get those compliments everyone wants to hear "have you lost weight?" 

Goals

I have officially started my weight loss again.  Two weeks ago I cut out regular soda.  I have been having two Diet Dr. Peppers a day.  One with lunch and one with my dinner.  The rest of the day I have a full water bottle at my side.  I plan on phasing out those two daily Diet Dr. Peppers too but I have to wean myself off of them cause if not I will get a killer headache.  I also cut out most sweets and fast food.  I lost 3 pounds that first week and 3 pounds the second week.  So down 6 pounds so far.  My goal for this month was 10 since I got started late. I'm hoping to lose 3 or 4 pounds this week to make my goal for the month.  If not no big deal.

My goal for February is a big one.  20 pounds and it's a short month at that.  If I don't make it I wont be to upset, I realize 20 pounds is a lot to lose in a month. Since I am starting back I expect the weight to come off quicker in the beginning.  We will see. 

I got my tread mill today!!  It's waiting for me at home.  This means it is time to get the ball rolling on my exercise.  I will have no excuse not to workout.

I'm working on another blog.  I haven't decided if it will a crafting blog, or a blog in general. I consider myself to be crafty and love to make things.  I have noticed when I craft I don't snack. I'm not thinking about food because my mind and hands are busy creating.  So I have a whole list of items I want to accomplish this year.  I will be sure to let my followers here know when my blog  gets going.

I had a couple of comments on my last blog.  Thank you Carbie and Robin for your support.  Hopefully most of my followers are still out there.  I intend on looking at blogs again. To see how everyone is doing.  

Knock Knock is anyone still out there?

Well here I am. Back.  As many of you suspect I have not done well on the weight loss front since I have been gone.  It looks like I haven't been here since May.  Quite a while.  Life has been busy.  In June my family went to Disney World. We had a wonderful time but I ate what I wanted on that trip and never looked back.  I have gained every pound I lost back.  Thankfully I haven't gained anymore than that.  I have no excuses. I got lazy with my exercise, I ate horribly.  And made excuse after excuse for myself.  So here I am back at point one...again.  I have been back at point one so many times in my life, it's exhausting.

I'm sitting here making my menu for the upcoming week.  I have looked up new light recipes, I bought a treadmill two days ago and drinking nothing but water. Really hoping this time I can do this.  I'm finally getting back into the mindset I can do this, I need to do this.

Since putting this weight back on I lost I can definably feel the difference in my body.  I'm bummed.  Everyday I wake up and my mind goes right to weight loss, I need to lose weight.  It's constantly on my mind.  I have to either get it off or learn to love my body like it is.  Well I don't love my body like it is, I hate my body like it is.  I miss hearing people comment on how much weight I had lost, wonder what they think now?  I actually miss working out, but I can't get the energy to get off my ass and do it. 

The other day I was ready to do the damn thing.  I ate great all day, I drank plenty of water, I said no to donuts..got home made dinner.  I didn't snack during dinner ( have an issue with that) Had dinner, cleaned up got the kids in bed. ... Put on the Biggest Loser with all intentions of riding my bike the whole show...the effing pedal broke off my bike.  I just sit there for a minute, my husband knew I was getting ready to go into meltdown mode telling me it was okay we can fix it.  I went to the bathroom eyes filled with tears.  I wasn't sure what to do anymore.  So I am making plans today to start new once again.

Okay I'm done rambling for now.  I look forward to blogging again.  I hope I  have followers who are still around. 

Anyone still here? If so I finally lost 50 pounds! (pictures)

I have been absent for so long.  I just don't have a lot of time to blog anymore.  I have not given up.  I have been maintaining the same weight for some time now.  I just could not get over that 48 pound mark.  Well I am pleased to say I have finally broke that funk  and lost 2 pounds last week.  I have finally got to 50 pounds lost.  It's been so much harder this time around losing weight.  But I am still here and still working toward my goal.  Fifty pounds was my first goal now onto 100 pounds gone.  I have a mini goal to lose 20 pounds by the time I go on vacation to Disney World.  The dead line for that is June 1st.  Maybe I can do it but if I don't I will take what I can get.  I am sorry for being such a sucky blogger...I truly miss it.   I leave you with a picture of before and after.

Before                                                                                                       After