Popping in for an update

It has been about a month since I was last here, give or take.  This seems to be the norm now.  It has been quite a busy time for my family.  My husbands birthday, my son's birthday and I our lovely vacation. 

Since the last time I was here I have lost 6 more pounds bring my total lost to 36 pounds.  I know I could have lost more but I know exactly why I didn't. Five of those pounds were lost before I left on vacation. I had this big plan in my head, I was going to eat as good as I could, I was going to take my kettle bell and I was going to utilize the hotel gym....syke!

Here is what really happened..I forgot my kettle bell, I ate whatever I wanted and I never saw that hotel gym.  However I did walk miles and miles five of the days I was there.  We went to Disney World so tons of walking, and tons of sweating.  That was probably what saved me from gaining a zillion pounds while I was there.  When I got back home I weighed myself I was up 10 effing pounds!  ten!  You know in the next 3 days I peed out all ten of those pounds, every single one of them.  That's a ton of sodium.  So I broke even.  The week after we came home from vacation I didn't do anything on the exercise front.  Nada.  For some reason I decided to give myself the week off....but on the bright side I did get back to eating better.  Again I stayed the same that week.

I had to  have a heart to heart with myself.  Last year when we too went to Disney World I had lost 50 pounds.  When we got back I was up and then I lost momentum then I gained 53 pounds, all my weight I had worked so hard to get off plus some.  I was well on my way this year to doing the same thing.  I knew I didn't want that to happen so when Monday rolled around I got myself up at 4:20 and dusted off the treadmill from it's two week vacay.  When I weighed in on Saturday I was down only a pound.  I decided I would just take it without fussing and try harder this week.

So I am rolling out of bed 4:20, counting everything that goes in my mouth and getting my butt back on track! I will leave you with a few pics.

 My hubby and kids we were getting on Star Tours.  Which I was totally nervous about getting on because I heard there was issues with hip room and seatbelts for larger guests..but no problem!

 My daughter and I waiting in the car for the boys.

 My totally awesome measuring cups, these are an essential in weight loss. 

   I had one bite of the famous Disney World turkey leg, not impressed..

I'm doing okay

I know my blog has been quiet, and normally that means something bad but in my case I am happy to report that's not the case.  I have just been so super busy, as usual.  My life never seems to slow down.

I am still losing weight, slowly but surely. My weight loss has stalled.  I haven't gain anything back and the last time I weighed I had lost 4 pounds.  So right now I am sitting at 30 pounds lost since February.  That doesn't seem like a lot to me and I wish it was more but that is what I can do right now I  can complain.  The scale is moving in the right direction.

I have been juggling around what works for me.  I think I may have found a routine I can live with. Most mornings I get up every weekday morning by 4:30 to workout. I do a 20 minutes on the treadmill, walk/run a little over a mile and then I do 15-20 minutes with my kettle bell.  I have to say I really like my kettle bell.  I can tell a huge difference in my arms.  I can feel my muscles!  Last week the kids and I went to the Arboretum to walk instead of getting on the treadmill.   It's beautiful out there, we usually go before I get ready for work and before I drop them off at summer camp.  So we are talking 6:45 am so it is still nice and cool.  We walked everyday last week. I also did my kettle bell every morning.  I usually get another walk in after dinner most of the time on the treadmill.  This week I have had to resort back to my treadmill so far.  Rain yesterday morning, and today my son couldn't walk that far, he hit his foot on the bottom of the pool when he jumped in so he is sore.

I didn't weigh in last week so I will weigh in on Sunday.  Pretty pathetic but I have my kids hide my scale so I don't obsess and get on it everyday.  I'm crazy like that.

My eating has been good.  I finally count calories. It's easier than I realized.  At first I typed up a whole big list but now I know what I am eating, since we eat a lot of the same things.  I just get my calculator on my phone and when I make my lunch in the morning I add up my breakfast and everything else I am taking with me to work, then add in my dinner.  When I run low on calories I just stop eating or pick something lower in calories.  I bought a nice kitchen scale so I weigh everything out and use my measuring cups and spoons.  I think I have it figured out for the moment. 

My husband and I are taking the kids on a surprise trip to Disney World in about two and half weeks.  I am so excited.  I plan on utilizing the gym and taking my kettle bell with me.  Also know I will get a ton a walking in at the theme parks my only issue is the eating.  I plan on making the best choices I can.

 I read blogs everyday, I just find it hard to sit down and type something out.  Hope everyone else is going great!

Long time..no post...rambles

It is so hard to find the time to post these days.  Between work, kids and everything else this blog gets put on the back burner. 
I have been doing good.  I have lost a total of 25 pounds since February.  I try to exercise at least 5 days a week.  Eating has been good for the most part, I still struggle with weekends.

Yesterday I had Orange Leaf,  yogurt place with the toppings type of joint.  I had peanut butter yogurt with some chocolate chips sprinkled on top.  I don't see anything wrong with treating yourself as long as it's not all the time.  I wanted some ice cream and I feel like I choose the best option, rather than going to dairy queen and getting a blizzard.  But I still have feelings of guilt even when I make the right choice.  It's like I have it in my head if it tastes good it must be bad for me.  And it isn't just yogurt that does this to me.  Lets take sweet potatoes for instance.  I have swapped out russet potatoes for sweet potatoes, the obviously healthier option but I can't get through my head it's better because they are so good.  I feel guilty for eating them because I thoroughly enjoy them.  I guess I am just cray cray!

Another thing I would like to weigh in on...counting calories. I hate the thought of counting calories.  Hate it!  Sure I look at the calories in something or I measure something out based on the calories but I never keep a running total on the calories I take in but I think this is something I truly need to do...So today I have embarked on the journey of counting calories.  Lets see if I can keep it up. 

I have made so many changes but feel like I need to make so many more..but one at a time is working so far.  I read something today "go about your lifestyle changes like you go about remodeling a house, one room at a time."

Until next time..Hopfully I will be back sooner with an update!

Progressing quite well

It's been a few weeks since I posted.  I have been busy at work, busy at home, busy on the weekends, I find it hard to blog.  I'm not even sure if I still have anyone who actually still reads this, but I still find it therapeutic to journal this weight loss journey so I will still blog.   Maybe one day I will find the courage to post my blog on Facebook for all my friends to see. That will be the day I want everyone to see how far I have come.  Right now I am still hush hush. 

I am pleased to announce since last posting I have lost 9 more pounds making my weightloss "reset" 16 pounds lost.  My goal for February was 10 pounds, I got eleven.   My goal for March is 10 pounds.  I have lost 5. So half way there! I have a "super" goal in my head of 15 but won't be bummed if I don't make that. 

I have been exercising about 6 days a week.  Usually on my treadmill, sometimes a workout video or a combo of both.  I took off Sunday and Yesterday because I have been working on some things for my daughter's birthday on Saturday but I plan to get good workouts in for the rest of the week. 

There is a good chance I won't be weighing in this coming weekend because I am due my monthly visit and I don't want to step on the scale and get discouraged if I see a gain or no movement.  So I think I will avoid Mr. Scale until the following weekend. 

Hope everyone is doing good!  Until next time!

Just a little rambling..

I skipped my weigh in last week for two reasons...monthly visitor..enough said and my husband and I had our second year wedding anniversary needless to say we ate well at a nice steakhouse.  I tried to do well and don't think I did to bad.  I had the 7 oz sirloin, baked potato butter on the side, and house salad with ranch on the side. We stayed in the same hotel we stayed at on our wedding night and the front desk sent us up a special treat.  Chocolate covered strawberries. 

  I had some of course and definably don't feel bad about eating them. I am deciding what changes I need to make one day at a time.  One of my decisions is not to cut out everything I love.  I know if I do then I will fail.  I have read so many  weight loss blogs and they all have something in common.  They didn't deprive themselves from what they wanted.  If I want to eat at a steakhouse and enjoy good food. I will. But only for occasions like my wedding anniversary.  If I am craving something sweet I will have it, just in a smaller portion. 

This week I started the 30 day shred again.  Fun fun.  I spent 20 minutes with Jillian then spent 30 minutes on the treadmill.

The photo doesn't do justice to the sweat and redness of my face!

 After that since it was nice out I went out and played a game of HORSE with my son and attempted to teach my daughter how to ride her bike without training wheels.

Tuesday was 30 day shred again and treadmill afterwards.  Wednesday I was super sick with a virus my children passed onto me. I went home from work yesterday still feeling a little under the weather but I still pushed through a 20 minute treadmill walk.  Enough to work up a nice sweat.  Tonight I am looking forward to another round with Jillian and the treadmill. 

Little at a time

I am happy to report I have lost another 2 pounds this past week. Since "resetting" I have lost a total of seven pounds.  Slow but steady.  I have been measuring out portions, eating more veggies, trading out regular pasta for wheat pasta and switching regular potatoes to sweet potatoes.  Small steps can really add up.  I have been walking on my treadmill every night.  I'm feeling good. 

I have decided not to tell anyone about my weight loss this time around.  Hopefully I will get those compliments everyone wants to hear "have you lost weight?" 

Goals

I have officially started my weight loss again.  Two weeks ago I cut out regular soda.  I have been having two Diet Dr. Peppers a day.  One with lunch and one with my dinner.  The rest of the day I have a full water bottle at my side.  I plan on phasing out those two daily Diet Dr. Peppers too but I have to wean myself off of them cause if not I will get a killer headache.  I also cut out most sweets and fast food.  I lost 3 pounds that first week and 3 pounds the second week.  So down 6 pounds so far.  My goal for this month was 10 since I got started late. I'm hoping to lose 3 or 4 pounds this week to make my goal for the month.  If not no big deal.

My goal for February is a big one.  20 pounds and it's a short month at that.  If I don't make it I wont be to upset, I realize 20 pounds is a lot to lose in a month. Since I am starting back I expect the weight to come off quicker in the beginning.  We will see. 

I got my tread mill today!!  It's waiting for me at home.  This means it is time to get the ball rolling on my exercise.  I will have no excuse not to workout.

I'm working on another blog.  I haven't decided if it will a crafting blog, or a blog in general. I consider myself to be crafty and love to make things.  I have noticed when I craft I don't snack. I'm not thinking about food because my mind and hands are busy creating.  So I have a whole list of items I want to accomplish this year.  I will be sure to let my followers here know when my blog  gets going.

I had a couple of comments on my last blog.  Thank you Carbie and Robin for your support.  Hopefully most of my followers are still out there.  I intend on looking at blogs again. To see how everyone is doing.  

Knock Knock is anyone still out there?

Well here I am. Back.  As many of you suspect I have not done well on the weight loss front since I have been gone.  It looks like I haven't been here since May.  Quite a while.  Life has been busy.  In June my family went to Disney World. We had a wonderful time but I ate what I wanted on that trip and never looked back.  I have gained every pound I lost back.  Thankfully I haven't gained anymore than that.  I have no excuses. I got lazy with my exercise, I ate horribly.  And made excuse after excuse for myself.  So here I am back at point one...again.  I have been back at point one so many times in my life, it's exhausting.

I'm sitting here making my menu for the upcoming week.  I have looked up new light recipes, I bought a treadmill two days ago and drinking nothing but water. Really hoping this time I can do this.  I'm finally getting back into the mindset I can do this, I need to do this.

Since putting this weight back on I lost I can definably feel the difference in my body.  I'm bummed.  Everyday I wake up and my mind goes right to weight loss, I need to lose weight.  It's constantly on my mind.  I have to either get it off or learn to love my body like it is.  Well I don't love my body like it is, I hate my body like it is.  I miss hearing people comment on how much weight I had lost, wonder what they think now?  I actually miss working out, but I can't get the energy to get off my ass and do it. 

The other day I was ready to do the damn thing.  I ate great all day, I drank plenty of water, I said no to donuts..got home made dinner.  I didn't snack during dinner ( have an issue with that) Had dinner, cleaned up got the kids in bed. ... Put on the Biggest Loser with all intentions of riding my bike the whole show...the effing pedal broke off my bike.  I just sit there for a minute, my husband knew I was getting ready to go into meltdown mode telling me it was okay we can fix it.  I went to the bathroom eyes filled with tears.  I wasn't sure what to do anymore.  So I am making plans today to start new once again.

Okay I'm done rambling for now.  I look forward to blogging again.  I hope I  have followers who are still around. 

Anyone still here? If so I finally lost 50 pounds! (pictures)

I have been absent for so long.  I just don't have a lot of time to blog anymore.  I have not given up.  I have been maintaining the same weight for some time now.  I just could not get over that 48 pound mark.  Well I am pleased to say I have finally broke that funk  and lost 2 pounds last week.  I have finally got to 50 pounds lost.  It's been so much harder this time around losing weight.  But I am still here and still working toward my goal.  Fifty pounds was my first goal now onto 100 pounds gone.  I have a mini goal to lose 20 pounds by the time I go on vacation to Disney World.  The dead line for that is June 1st.  Maybe I can do it but if I don't I will take what I can get.  I am sorry for being such a sucky blogger...I truly miss it.   I leave you with a picture of before and after.

Before                                                                                                       After

Legs are a hurtin'!

My legs H-U-R-T!  Starting this past Monday I started walking in the mornings and the evenings.  So I have been walking roughly 4 miles a day.  I through in a jog here and there for as long as I can.  My shins hurt.  Everything else is sore but my shins hurt...did I mention my shins effing hurt. 

I am hoping this helps boost my weight loss this week.  I plan on walking tonight and tomorrow morning.  I may have to go to the gym tomorrow evening because the kids are coming home from their dad's tomorrow night so I may not have time.  I am trying to figure out a plan to keep this up as much as possible but I am not sure how yet.  The kids are on spring break and with their dad so it is easy to get all of this walking in.  When they come home and I have to get them to school I get home to late to walk.  I have to start getting ready for work.  Then in the evenings I guess I can walk by myself and leave the kids with hubby but I feel a little bad doing that because he enjoys walking too.  I could always take them with us but my daughter can't keep up and it doesn't feel like a work out when I have to keep stopping for her or walk her speed.  Always a hurdle. 

Hope everyone is doing awesome. 

Walking to lose?

I weighed in Saturday losing 2 lbs.  I am down 48 pounds.  I rode my exercise bike for 30 minutes Monday-Friday and did the 30 day shred 3 days last week.  I counted my calories and stayed around or under 1600 calories every day.  And I still only lost 2 pounds.  I know 2 pounds is good but I thought I did well enough to lose more than that. 

I'm starting a new goal today. Even though I have not been meeting my goals I set for myself I am gonna try it again.  I need to lose 22 pounds in 8 to 9 weeks.  That will being me to 70 pounds lost by the time we will be leaving on our Disney World vacation in June.  I really hope I can do it!

This week I am going to change up my exercises.  Maybe that exercise bike is just not cutting it for my body.  I am going to walk.  Yes walk.  The weather is nice, my kids are visiting their dad until Thursday evening so I have time to get in a lot of walking.  My plan is to walk in the mornings before work and in the evenings after dinner with my hubby.  I started off this morning with my walk.  Part of my path is a track I get to at a nearby park.  I walk around that track twice before I go on.  This morning I ran twice for about 2 min intervals.  I know it's not much yet but I will work at it and it is more than I could do last year at this time.  I would run more intervals but I know no one is watching me at the track so I feel more comfortable.  I haven't brought myself to running where passing cars could see me.  I def feel it in my legs.  I know I have done something when I am sore.  I look forward for another walk with my husband tonight. 

Tonight is the Championship game in college basketball....I'm a Kentucky girl soo Go Cats!! 

Weigh in and other tid bits

I weighed Saturday morning and I lost a total of 1 pound last week.  Ehhh.  I was wanting more but didn't get it.  However this does bring me down to the lowest since I started this, so that is the bright side. 

I was watching something on TV and they said the number one reason for being overweight is stress.  Does that mean your stressed and you eat or does that mean your stressed and your body isn't likely to lose? 
I was stressed last week but I don't think that has to do with me only losing the one pound.  I just really didn't have time to exercise.  I think I got in about 1.5 hours of exercise the whole week.  I had to get together my court documents and get myself prepared.  The 14th I got all of my items to make cakes for my daughters birthday party at Chuck E Cheese...which I stressed over for no reason.  I started baking that night and before having to be at court at 3:30 on the 15th I finished my two cakes.  Now I know this is a weight loss blog but I have to show you the cakes I made for her party....

Then I had court...I went so great.  The ex husband of course lied about everything but the judge gave me full custody, full decision making when it comes to anything for the kids and he has until Friday to set up child support. (since we have been divorced he has given me 40.00 for them)  If he don't go to the child support office he will be in contempt and go to jail for possibly 6 months.  I still allowed him to see them every other weekend, not that he deserves it. 
Saturday was the party and it went so well.  It is always so hot in there though.  When I asked for my bill the hostess said it had already been taken care of.  One of the neighbors that came paid for the whole thing.  Even bought 150 extra tokens for the kids.  How nice is that?

This week is going good so far.  Biked last night for about 30 mins on rolling hills.  I had to take my son to a doctors appointment this morning so before I picked him up from school I walked for about 40 minutes and I plan to get on the bike again tonight.  Hoping to have a good loss this week.  I really wanted to lose 20 pounds this month (big goal I know) I have lost 11. Wouldn't it be great to lose 9 pounds this week?!  I know that is wishful thinking but maybe I can at least lose 4 to finally make it to 50 pounds lost. 

Chobani and weigh in

I lost 2 pounds last week. So that means I lost the 10 pounds I gained. Now to start moving forward.  I didn't do to bad this weekend.  Went to the movies and popcorn never tempted me.  :) 

Part of my diet has included Chobani yogurt as a snack.  I am not big on greek yogurt but I can deal with the Chobani fruit on the bottom.  I found some Chobani yogurt six packs.  They were vanilla with chocolate chunks. Mmmm they were so good but after I looked at the packaging longer it said " the first greek yogurt for kids".  Oh well I like them so I will keep getting them. 

I went to Kroger yesterday only to find they did not carry the chocolate chunk. I was a little p'od.  So today at work I had an idea.  I had a vanilla Chobani and a Hershey kiss. 

One lone Hershey Kiss.

Smashed it and made shavings with my spoon.










Added the chocolate to my cup of Vanilla Chobani

Swirled it around and I have my own chocolate chuck Chobani!

 

 And it did the trick.  The chocolate piece seem to neutralize the sour taste of the greek yogurt.  

Who is doing brackets?  I love college basketball.  I will be filling mine out today.  Go Cats!  

Feeling guilty

Last night is the only night I had an issue with following my food plan.  I had a parent/teacher conference at my son's school so I got home later than usual.  My family decided they wanted to go to Olive Garden.  I was like sure, I thought for sure they would have something I could eat there.  I studied the menu and got on my phone too look up nutrition.  I'm really not that big on Italian so I didn't order anything crazy.  So what did I get...

The lunch portion of the cheese ravioli with marinara sauce for 530 calories and one bread stick for 150 calories:(  I scraped off most of the sauce and cheese that came on top but I still felt guilty.   I felt  guilty the whole time I ate it.  And your probably asking yourself why did you eat it? Ugghhhh I don't know.  After the fact I was thinking....I was like you probably could have gotten them to grill you a chicken breast, you could have gotten the salad beside that...but hell no I didn't do that I ate the pasta.  Live and learn I guess.  I just feel guilty about it.  I worked so hard last week to get back on track and then I ate that.  Boooo on me.

Did have a NSV while I was there.  Last time I had been at Olive Garden the chairs there were so snug around my legs and butt, but last night I fit comfortable, even had some wiggle room. :) Wiggle wiggle wiggle

8 lbs

Yep that is how much I lost the first week I was on my new plan.  I am really please with those 8 lbs.  The appetite suppressant/fat burner I am using really works! I have been eating my balanced meals and feeling satisfied.  I get fuller quicker and I am not tempted to snack.  In fact the food plan they have me follow is too much food.  I can't even eat it all most days.  I am full of energy and have been exercising.  I'm pretty content with the way things have been going now lets see if this keeps up!

I told you I would blog more but things have been busy.  How about this wacky weather we have been having?  I live in Kentucky and right in the middle of those deadly tornadoes from Friday.  Not one hit my town but they hit all around.  West Liberty, Kentucky got hit really hard and it's truly heartbreaking.  I feel so blessed, because it could have been so much worse.  Then we got 5 inches of snow yesterday!?  Crazy!  Hope everyone is doing good.

I'm gonna blog

Okay I think I'm back.  I am not gonna promise everyday blogging but I will as much as I can.  Things have been super busy and I have let my life get in the way of my weight loss.  I have been back in fourth in court with my ex-husband over the custody of our kids.  We have a final court date on March 15th.  I have temporary full custody of them until then.  He still sees them every other weekend, but he don't do a damn thing for them, my kids have been sick with a virus, my husband got the virus..blah blah blah excuses and rambling.  Anyway  I was down 44 pounds now I am only down 34.  So yea I gained 10 pounds back since December.  That sucks! But I have no one to blame but myself.  So I am picking my self back up. Monday I started something new.  I feel like I am always hungry.  I only allow myself to take portioned food to work, and I make sure I don't have change so I don't get in the vending machine.  But by the afternoon I am starving so when I get home I snack the entire time I cook dinner, and I know all those little bites add up big time.  So I got a appetite suppressant and fat burner medication.  I only got a two week supply because I didn't know how it was going to effect my body or my mind. :) And I wanted to see if it worked. 
With the pill I got a meal plan based on my weight, activity level and gender.  So I have been following that.  Sunday I took the time to prep my food.  I measured all of my chicken and steak into 6 oz and froze them in separate freezer bags, I cut up 1 cup baggies of strawberries and stuck them in the freezer as well.  I cooked a huge pot of green beans and put them in one container in my fridge for me to eat out of every day.  I cooked a meat loaf for my family and made a lasagna because I know they will get tired of eating what I am eating.  Everything is in order to make sure that I don't fail.  Monday I started with out the pills I wanted to see if I how I felt eating on the meal plan.  Yesterday I started the pills.  They seem to be working really well.  I don't feel jittery or like my heart is racing, nothing bad.  I definably feel them giving me energy, and they are for sure suppressing my appetite.  Last night at dinner I wasn't even that hungry and I didn't snack one bit while cooking dinner for my family.  I drank 80 oz of water yesterday, which is really good for me.  I exercised both days this week so far and I feel good about this.
I don't plan on taking these pills forever but for a few months.  I felt like I needed something to jump start my weight loss and help me with appetite suppression and energy.  Hopefully Monday when I weigh again I will have lost a good amount. Now some pictures:

Here is what I had for breakfast this morning minus my banana. Its six egg whites..yes I said SIX and a piece of whole grain toast with spray butter. 

This is my mid morning snack yesterday.  Greek yogurt with flax seeds.  This brand is the only Greek yogurt I like.

I got my hair cut, colored and highlighted.  You can't really see the color of it but I looks so good, if I don't say so myself.  Here is a before and after.  I'm going for the sexy teacher look in the second one...haha!! 

My hubby and I on our 1 year anniversary.  Yep we made it! He is the best man I have ever known.

 My family.  I keep reminding myself I need to do this not only for myself but for them too.  To be around for them!  Hope everyone is doing great.  I have been reading and commenting  a little but I promise to be a better blogger!

Stay with me..

I have had a lot of personal stuff to get in order and until I do this blog will have to take the back burner.  I just don't have the time.  Thanks everyone for sticking around I will be back very soon.  I have been reading when I can.  I will do a total catch up in a few weeks.  Hope all is well!

Scale is broken!

I changed the batteries in my scale and now it doesn't weigh correctly.  Every time I step on it, it says something different. Soooo I don't know what I weigh, what I lost.  I am going to just weigh in Saturday after I buy my new scale.  I feel like I have lost weight, even though I have been dealing with these last 5 pounds since the first of December.  Does everyone else just get stuck sometimes?  Slack off?  The last two weeks have been awesome. I have been following my menu I have been making for the past two week and I have exercised every night.  Yesterday I rode my stationary bike in the morning for 20 minutes before work and 30 minutes last night.  I can feel it in my legs today.  I give myself spirts ( is that a word) of when I stand up and ride.  I definably adds something.  I took a picture today.  I wanted to compare it from when I first started. 

That's a least 45 pounds!  Today I am wearing my Kentucky Blue cause our #1 team in the nation is playing yucky ol' Tennessee tonight.  GOOOOo Cats!! 

Lots going on this week

First off I did not weigh in this week.  TOM was in town and I was really bloated.  So I skipped.  Hoping next week I see a good loss.  I made out a weekly menu and I have to say that works well for me I am going to push myself to continue to do that.  Last night my son snapped a picture of me and the husband playing UNO.  Oh no! I ended that game real quick and jumped on my exercise bike.  That picture depressed me the rest of the night, I guess it motivated me too.  My daughter gets to start pre school tomorrow.  I had to go through this whole big process to get her approved.  She has a speech problem, like a lot of kids she does not enunciate a lot of words correctly.  For example she will say "poon" instead of spoon or she will say "mell" instead of smell.  I have been going through the process since August and she finally gets to start tomorrow.  She will be so excited when I tell her she gets to ride the big bus with her brother.  I of course will take her the first day. :)  The early start program is at my son's school which is really cool and convenient.

Also I know this stuff is not weight loss related but I really need some prayers.  I have a final court hearing on Thursday for my custody with my children.  Now I am not trying to not let my ex husband not be able to see the kids I just want to make sure I have full legal custody.  Which means I have all say in schooling, doctors, ect.  Last February I got re-married.  My ex-husband kept the kids while we were on our honeymoon.  While I was gone he un-enrolled Tyler (son) out of his school he had went to all year round and en-rolled him in another school closer to where he lived.  When I found this out I was livid! I quickly enrolled him back in his school.   He is bi-polar (not medicated), he has had TWO dvo's on him,  one of them was on me, he hasn't kept a job in years, he went to jail for 90 days for stealing credit cards, he has given my 40.00 since we have been divorced.  He is supposed to pay half of daycare, he don't.  I pay 740.00 a month people! He is supposed to keep them on insurance, my current husband has them on his.  I could go on and on but I won't.  I just need prayers that everything goes my way.

Weigh In

Last week I ate crappy.  The first part of the week started off good but by Wednesday it seemed like I was a hungry hungry hippo!  I couldn't seem to stop eating..Grrrr.  I was expecting a gain not a 1 pound loss! I will take that.  I am still 1 pound away from losing the 7 I gained over the holidays but I'm thinking this week will be a good one.  Fingers Crossed.